Prelude to Meditation

every night in silence i speak and the silence in me speaks about the persisent need to seek the divine, an unwavering and almost non forcible thought which had stayed with me and surafced ever since my school days.
sometimes the depth of silence during the night, at times of non distraction and observation is equally intriguing and mysterious and seems to hide some profound knowledge of our conscious self, which is covered and distanced by the restless mind directing attention outwardly and serving the senses all the time.
The kind of peace experienced then lacks the concept of time and remains so till mind intervenes out of jealousy seeing such a tranquility and serenity. It interferes by thoughts of suspicion, of low self esteem and lack of self confidence, which are such defeating forces onto oneself.
Befriending one's mind is the most difficult relationship,which if mastered brings about frictionless acceptance in recognizing problems of humanity from a standpoint of viewing my problems and others problems are essentially of the same nature and therefore work together to solve them rather than embracing the current way of dividing, blaming, accusing and further fuelling the indifferences.
Pocketed ideas, groupistic ideologies, ignorant and selfish divisions, are increasingly creating more knowledge based conflicts, fanaticsm, blind nationalism fuelling hatred and physical violence. Corrupted teachings, misinterpretd truths, hijacking of theories and the hunger to feel and become powerful not for just cause but out of insecurity and fear are the primary reason for its sustenance.
Queititude of the mind by self immersion immediately brings the fallacy and chaos created by the same mind, the clay, which can be moulded into any shape and size for whatever purposes deemed necessary by our super self, who spins the wheel of samsara many time before the art is perfected. The glorification of flesh born to decay under the name of race, caste, religion and nationalities makes suffering eternal to mankind.
ONly in permanence, authority is established. Yet in this very changing world of circumstances where everything is short lived and impermanent we seek to find solace by seeking to posses or make them permanent against their very own nature. The authority of permanence is the dance of one's consciousness in harmony with the super self, not the decoraton of ornaments of ignorance and mental inertia which spoils this rhythymic tune of truth.
In the floor of meditation and in the hall of such silence the inertia of sleep or the feared enemy of distraction if not checked reigns supreme, where the harmonious dance of self discovery needs to perform. The more of which you practice becomes the habit and thus one's destiny. I pray to this silence to shower me from my sprouts of momentary vairagya to bless with ever flowing fountain of eletrical kundalini.

awake arise ascend, from your base lotus
fill flower flame, as eternal witness
conquer crush command, my mind's shortness
grant bless unite with life's wholeness